Monday - Hot and sunny
A crazy mixed up day. Not good.
I got up and then fell asleep on the couch! I watched a bit of TV and then finally got dressed. F asked me out for lunch, but I said no. After all the fighting about food, I just couldn't face having lunch with him today.
He called me a couple of hours later to say that he could pick up my whiteboard at my school and bring it to our apartment. I went into action and left home, stopping only for a couple of sandwiches at the convenience store. Unfortunately, by the time I got to my school, F had already been and was now at our apartment looking for me. He couldn't come back just then.
I got to work and did a bit of boxing things up. I also took apart my whiteboard. That was "fun"! F did call later and was able to put my whiteboard in his vehicle. He brought me home with him. I'd left the school in such a hurry that I didn't have socks on or my backpack with me!
I stayed home for a bit and vegged. I was really feeling quite horrible. I think just too much stress lately, and not much happiness.
F finished work and came home. We went out to get gas for our car and then he took me to my school again. I had planned to do more work, but I couldn't face it. I just felt drained.
We went to the drugstore and then when F asked where I'd like to go, I told him to the grocery store because I didn't want to have dinner in a restaurant with him. It's been quite horrible lately and I can't handle it. I told him, as evenly as I could, that even though HE thinks he isn't yelling at me, I hear it as yelling. I don't know if he understands me, after all, Japanese people seem to yell at each other in private all the time and it doesn't phase them, but it kills me.
I went to the grocery store, got a couple of things to eat and then went back home. F left and went to a ramen shop.
I had a good dinner and watched some TV. After that, I did my dishes and F came home. He had a fairly early night tonight, which was a relief for me.
Tomorrow I have to go to my school and I need to defrost the freezer. I also have to finish up packing so I can do some cleaning. Still have a lot of work to do, but the end is sort of in sight! Wish me luck? Night.