December 17, 2020

Thursday - Cold and snowy


Well, today was a crap day, but it didn’t start that way. I got up, had a quiet morning and afternoon, for the most part. 


I got up early and went downstairs for a moment, then came back and went back to bed. I slept a little late, and then turned on the big heater, watched the news and didn’t snooze. Yay. I got up and then did a load of laundry. I hung it up in my room and put the old load of clean laundry on my bed to fold later.


I was deciding what to do with myself when I got a text from F saying that he had taken the afternoon off. I was happy about it. 


F came back and I expected that he’d ask if I’d had lunch or not. I expected he’d talk to me like a normal person. He got into bed and basically said that he either wanted to go to bed or get a massage. Since he got into bed, I realized that he wasn’t interested in me or having lunch, so I went downstairs and made my lunch.


I brought it back upstairs to eat and then he announced that he was going to take his mother to the onsen and then go and have a massage. He said this a couple of times, which I heard, but figured that I wasn’t invited since I hadn’t been invited. I put on a movie and watched that.


He left with his mother and I continued watching my movie. I heard her come back sometime around 4, which is about the time that my heater in the kitchen was due to come on.  She kept leaving the kitchen and leaving the door open. I kept running down and closing it.  It was difficult!


Around 5:30 I went downstairs to get dinner ready. I chopped a few vegetables, open cans, got things ready to go. Around 6:30, F still hadn’t come back. I didn’t know where he was. He did get back somewhere around 7 pm.  And that’s when things went downhill.


He came in and I asked him how he was. He said he felt good from the massage and he asked me how I was. I said quite honestly that I was fine now, but was upset earlier. He wanted to know why. I told him that I had wanted to go out and maybe have lunch with him, but he didn’t bring it up. He didn’t even talk to me.  He told me that he did talk to me but I didn’t listen. I did listen, I just didn’t hear anything that sounded like, “what would you like to do?” or anything to do with me.  Of course, he refused to eat dinner with me. 


I cooked dinner and had to go upstairs for the tortilla chips so tried to ask F again if he’d join us. He wasn’t polite in his refusal.


I didn’t want to open the package of tortilla shells for just me, so I decided to make taco rice for myself and for K. I heated up the rice, made the plates and took everything through to the living room. 


K told me that she’d eaten too many sweet potatoes during the day and she didn’t want to eat anything. She asked if she could have the meal tomorrow. I said it was okay, I grabbed my plate and took it back to the kitchen, then I got some of the cling wrap and went to wrap her plate with it, but she said she’d eat it. So, she sat in the living room and ate the whole thing, while I sat in the kitchen and shovelled my food into my mouth so quickly that I didn’t even taste it. I’m quite sad about it. 


I did the dishes, even did K’s dishes and then went upstairs. I basically got ignored, which is fine.  I did some printing, I did print some of the nengajo tonight. Then, I scanned a bunch of the Postcrossing cards that I haven’t blogged or scanned before. I didn’t do the Gotochi Cards I should yet, but maybe I will soon. Hopefully.


I took a shower and then came back upstairs and watched The Rookie. It was a good episode tonight.


So, here I am, the week before Christmas and my husband and I are at odds again. Sigh. Last year at this time I was getting ready to go to Canada. This year, not so much. 


Anyway, that’s about it for me for today. Come back later if you like and hear all about my Friday. Until tomorrow….



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