July 18, 2022

 Monday - Marine Day - Hot and Muggy

I didn’t want to get up this morning so I didn’t. I really wish that I had stayed in bed all day. I stayed in bed quite late but finally dragged myself out of bed and over to my computer. F did ask if I wanted to go for lunch, but I honestly didn’t. For a long time, I didn’t want lunch and then I did! Around 2 I asked F if he’d like to go to Arpeggio. We drove there, but got there just at 2:30.  Basically, F dawdled so long that we missed the last call. They apologized and said that they were out of rice, so we couldn’t eat there.

After that, we drove around Tsuruoka, looking for a place where we wanted to eat. There wasn’t anything. If I said I’d go somewhere, F wouldn’t and vice versa. We literally drove all over Tsuruoka. I thought he was crazy. Finally, he started talking about a place near the river that had light lunches. It finally twigged that he meant Kissa Marina and I said it was fine. 

We could get in and were seated right away at the counter. After a few minutes, they asked if we’d like to move to a table and of course, we said yes. We moved and then ordered. I had shrimp and avocado Genovese pasta and F had a roast beef donburi. Both meals came with soup, salad and a drink. F’s roast beef was a little tough, but I really enjoyed my meal. We paid and left.

I suggested getting groceries next, so we drove over to the grocery store and I went in and picked up some groceries for the next couple of days. F asked me to get him some senbei which I did. I came back to the car and we came back to the house for a bit. I put the groceries away and then went upstairs. 

F vegged on the bed for a while and then around 6:30 he asked me if I wanted to go shopping.  I had wanted to go to S-Mall to see if my craft store had opened yet or not, but it hadn’t according to the website. We went to the local grocery store at my suggestion to get something for K’s dinner. F as usual was so picky. He would pick things up and then put them back two minutes later. Frustrating. Oh, did I mention that we had a big blowup in the parking lot before we went into the store? We did.

We came back to the house and F gave his mother food. I came upstairs and stayed at my computer, and had a cup of tea if memory serves. I got a text from F asking me to come shopping.  I finally decided that I would. I wish that I hadn’t gone.

We started driving, but I had no idea where we were going. We went to a ramen shop. F asked me to come in with him but I wouldn’t do it. I asked him what I could eat there and he said chahan (fried rice). Just the idea made my stomach churn. I felt off the whole weekend, so I didn’t want it. He went inside and ate, locking me in the car.

After he finished, we went along the street to Yamaya. I grabbed a basket and picked up a few things that I wanted for myself or the kitchen. I looked around for F but he wasn’t there. I bought my stuff and felt really resentful that F didn’t pay for the kitchen stuff.

As he didn’t care if I ate or not…that is what he said, we headed towards the house. As we got close to the house I asked him to take me to the 7-11 on the corner near his house. He did drop me there. I went in and picked up a few things for dinner.

When I got back in the car we had words and then spent the next couple of hours arguing and driving. It wasn’t good, which is an understatement. When I wrote out what really happened I decided that I couldn’t post it.

We finally came back to the house and I heated up my food and ate it. I also prepared the plastic garbage to go out tomorrow. 

There is a possibility that I won’t be around for a couple of days. I’ll most likely show up again when I feel like it. I’ll probably be here, you just never know. So, I’ll talk to you when I talk to you. Until tomorrow….?