Saturday - Hot and sunny and windy
Another terrible, horrible wasted day.
I got up this morning, got dressed and suggested that F drop me off at the movie theatre or join me to see the movie. I didn’t know if he would or not, but he did! We went to see Phantom Thread and it was interesting. It was a very good film about a very bad relationship. Before and after we visited the bakery in the building to get a snack.
Sadly we came back to F’s house after the movie and that’s where we stayed for ages. F asked if I’d like some somen and I said no. He made some for himself and his mother. He took a nap, then I took a nap. I was upset about wasting the day and decided to go out at 3:30. When the time came around I thought he’d come too, but he said that I’d said that I would go out so he wasn’t invited. Funny thing is that he does that to me ALL the time and I’m supposed to know that he’s meaning me too. So, I went out.
I walked to a convenience store, sat inside for a while and read my book and then bought a few things for later and came back towards the house. I sat in the park for a bit and then came to the house. I found it empty. F, K and the car were all gone. Oh dear. I came in and upstairs. I decided to turn on the air conditioner too. The wind has been strong all day as there’s a typhoon coming through and so things are being blown about the room.
F came back a bit later and basically ignored me. I ignored him. We tried to nap separately, didn’t really work for me.
Around 8:30 I asked him if he’d eaten, he hadn’t. Did he want to? He didn’t know. Where would I like to go? Where could he find something he could eat? And so on. He ended up almost screaming at me to pick a place and not to care if he could eat there or not. Fine then. I picked Cocos so off we went.
We had to wait a few minutes for a table. They’re non-smoking on the weekend it looks like and there is a Cocos app too. We downloaded it and tried to sign up for it. It took a while and we didn’t really know that we had to sign up for it. I had chicken Jambalaya and it was good, F had a noodle dish that may or may not have agreed with him. Sigh.
Things gradually got friendlier, but still aren’t great between us. We came back to the house and I took a shower and watched a little telly. F went to bed and seems to be sleeping.
Apart from the movie today, I had no plans for the day. I had hoped to go downtown and make a hair appointment but F wasn’t helpful. I am finding it increasingly difficult to deal with F and his health problems. They aren’t my fault and yet I feel like I am bearing the brunt of his ire at them. After another tirade tonight I actually asked him if there was anything that he did like about me. He said everything….but I think he meant nothing.
That’s it for me for tonight. I’ll likely be around tomorrow night, although you never know. Come back if you dare for more whining and self-pity. Until tomorrow….
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